Friday, June 22, 2007

An Eventful Afternoon

Well, I just got home from the emergency room. I was there for about 4 hours with a little bit of a scare. I was having some contraction-like thingies (they said probably were contractions) and I'm only 23 weeks along.

Thank goodness, everything is ok. They gave me meds to stop the contractions and told me they likely happened because I was pretty dehydrated (I don't know how) and that I need to make sure to drink lots more water.

So now I must completely avoid caffeine and most sugar and drink, drink, drink h20.

In other news... I am now86, or so, hours smoke free, Yay! I had a pretty intense craving this morning, but largely it's not so bad as I would have thought it'd be.

Thursday, June 21, 2007

35 hours smoke-free

I haven't smoked for 35 hours... man I want a cigarette. I keep telling myself that this is what I need to do, that it is important for Lily. I hate imagining her having to go cold turkey at birth (adding to her trauma) and I want to give her the best start I can... so this is good. It still sucks; I still want to smoke right now :) happily, I have great reserves of willpower.

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Random Musings

Lily has become very active lately. She kicks me all day and all night long, luckily she's not big enough to hurt me (yet). I'm starting to wonder if she's going to be one of those never sleeping babies... thus making me a never sleeping mom. Hope not.

The good news is that I have finally made the decision to completely quit smoking. I had cut down a lot but not quit... well, I finished a pack at about 4 this afternoon and have not smoked since then... that's 10 hours. We'll see how it goes tomorrow etc, but I have (in the past) been the sort of person to actually stick with things once I decide to do them. Hopefully that will be the case here.

I'm getting more and more crafty, currently knitting and I've decided I want to sew the bedding and stuff for Lily's nursery and also do at least one scrapbook for her (not sure if digital or paper based). I feel as if I'm becoming more and more domestic and I'm not sure how I feel about that.

It's not that I'm against domesticity, it's just that its never been a part of who I am and, honestly, it really isn't anything of how I see myself. I also don't have a lot of confidence in my ability to become domestic in ways other than artistic... I hope I can though :)

I'm kind of interested to see how things end up and who being a mommy makes me become.